Hear my Call

"Hear My Call"

[Verse 1]
Here I am again asking questions,
Waiting to be moved.
I am so unsure of my perception,
What I thought I knew I don't seem to
Where is the turn so I can get back to what I believe in?
Back to the old me and

[Chorus]
God, please hear my call.
I am afraid for me.
Love has burned me raw
I need your healing
Please, please, please.

[Verse 2]
I am such a fool
How did I get here?
Played by all the rules
Then they changed
I am but a child to your vision
Standing in the cold and the rain
Lost here in the dark
I can't see my foot to take a step,
What is happening?
Oh, this hurts so bad. I can hardly breathe.
I just want to leave so...

[Chorus]
God, please hear my call.
I am afraid for me.
Love has burned me raw
I need your healing
Please,
God, please hear my call.
I am afraid for me.
Love has burned me raw
I need your healing
Please, please, oh, please, please.

God please hear my call.
I am afraid.
Love has turned me cold,
I need your healing.
Please, please, please, please, please, please.

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/jillscott/hearmycall.html

Love

"Love"

[Verse 1]

I used to think that I wasn't fine enough
And I used to think that I wasn't wild enoughBut I won't waste my time tryin' to figure out
Why you playing games, whats this all about
And I can't believe,
Your hurting me
I met your girl, what a difference
What you see in her
You ain't seen in me
But i guess it was all just make-believe
[Chorus]

Oh, Love
Never knew what I was missing
But I knew once we start kissin'
I found..... I found you......
Love
Never knew what I was missin'
But I knew once we start kissin'
I found..... I found you.....

[Verse 2]

Now you're gone, what am I gonna do
So empty
My heart, my soul can't go on
Go on without you....
My rainy days fade away when you,
Come around please tell me baby
Why you go so far away
Why you go...

[Chorus]

Love......
Never knew what I was missing
But I knew once we start kissin'
I found..... I found you......
Love
Never knew what I was missin'
But I knew once we start kissin'
I found..... I found you.....

Who would have known.
I'd find you.

Now you're gone, what am I gonna do
So empty
My heart, my soul can't go on
Go on baby without you....
Rainy days fade away
When you come around
Say your here to stay
With me boy
I don't want you to leave me
I need you.........

[Chorus]

Love ~ Keyshia Cole http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/keyshiacole/love.html

 

Self Reflection

In the course of being me I realized something important about me. I thought (and I dont know why) I was a pretty good communicator. But the other day going over my past relationships I noticed that this trait has deminished quickly. My communication skills have pretty much disappeared. Too many battle scars I guess. And then it doesnt help to realize (although I already knew, but this was a brutal reminder) that age does not denote maturity.
When I look back on my life its a wonder I talk to people at all. I have a bunch of chips on my shoulders. And a few friendships that faded away to things of the past. Some uncontrollably and others, its just better to let them go. I could see the ineviditable coming. When it comes down to it. I'm just tired. Tired of people and tired of drama.
I realize that I have my own special way of seeing things. My own special way of processing things. Attempts to change my thinking are truly futile. Most people want you to think like them or they judge you for thinking differently. I'm tired of the whole charade.
Down the rabbit hole I go, maybe I'll resurface on Ground Hogs Day. But I'm really cool off of those who cant let me be, and work out my issues naturally.
Matters of the heart are always difficult to decide for. To have the weight of the world also looming over you is too much to bare.

PayPhone - Maroon 5

Payphone"(feat. Wiz Khalifa)

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember,
The people we used to be...
It's even harder to picture,
That you're not here next to me.

You say it's too late to make it,
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

If "Happy Ever After" did exist,
I would still be holding you like thisAll those fairy tales are full of it.
 One more stupid love song, I'll be sick
Oh, you turned your back on tomorrow
'Cause you forgot yesterday.
I gave you my love to borrow,
But you just gave it away.

You can't expect me to be fine,
I don't expect you to care
I know I've said it before,
But all of our bridges burned down

I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

If "Happy Ever After" did exist,
I would still be holding you like thisAll those fairy tales are full of it.
 One more stupid love song, I'll be sickNow I'm at a payphone

[Wiz Khalifa:]
Man, f... that s...
I'll be out spending all this money
While you're sitting round wondering
Why it wasn't you who came up from nothing,
Made it from the bottom
Now when you see me I'm stunning,
And all of my cars start with a push of a button

Telling me the chances I blew up
Or whatever you call it,
Switch the number to my phone
So you never could call it,
Don't need my name on my shirt,
You can tell it I'm ballin.

Swish, what a shame could have got picked
Had a really good game but you missed your last shot
So you talk about who you see at the top
Or what you could have saw but sad to say it's over for.
Phantom pulled up valet open doors
Wiz like go away, got what you was looking for
Now it's me who they want, so you can go and take
that little piece of s... with you.

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

If "Happy Ever After" did exist,
I would still be holding you like thisAll those fairy tales are full of it.
 One more stupid love song, I'll be sickNow I'm at a payphone.....

PMS

"PMS"

I wanna talk to the ladies tonight
About situation I'm pretty sure y'all be able to relate to
Trust me

Today I'm not feelin pretty
See I'm feeling quite ugly
Havin one of this days
When I cant make up my mind
So don't even look at me
See I don't wanna hear your problem
Cause I'm having some of my own
I know it was not your fault
That I'm feelin down
I just wanna be left alone

Down I'm down and out in depression
I think the worst of everything
My lower back is achin'
And my clothes don't fit
Now aint that a bitch

Got an attitude and I aint talkin to you
Only if the shoe'd fit
I don't care what you think about me
I don't need you cryin' around me
Don't need your sympathy
I don't need it, no no
PMS

Go through something in nights
Is the some at day
I don't need to understand
Where I'm coming from tonight
See I'm feelin messin
Told you, you would be able to late tonight
My lower back is achin'
PMS

And I don't know what I'm gonna do
I'm fulled stressed
I want y'all to hear what I'm sayin
PMS, PMS, PMS

Understand what I'm sayin tonight
Understand where I'm comin from
Feelin really bitch yeah
And I don't feel like be a nice to nobody
Don't feel like smilin no
Don't feel like smilin no no
See I already know that I'm talkin
PMS

And I don't need you to remind me
See cause PMS
Is takin no all right now
if you understand, understand where I'm comin from
Sing along, PMS
This is the worst part of everything
The worst part of being a woman is PMS
Give me a break, give me a break
Cause I don't wanna have to set it on tonight

http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/maryjblige/pms.html

Why, Why Georgia WHY?????

Why Georgia
I am driving up 85 in the kind of morning
That lasts all afternoon, I'm just stuck inside the gloomFour more exits to my apartment
But I am tempted to keep the car in drive and leave it all behind'Cause I wonder sometimes about the outcome of a still verdict less life

Am I living it right, am I living it right?
Am I living it right
Why, why Georgia, why?

I rent a room and I fill the spaces with wood in places
To make it feel like home but all I feel's alone
It might be a quarter life crisis, just a stirrin' in my soulEither way I wonder sometimes about the outcome of a still verdict less life

Am I living it right, am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why, why Georgia, why?

So what, so I've got a smile on
But it's hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
Don't believe me, don't believe me when I say I've got it down

Everybody's just a stranger but that's the danger in going my own wayI guess it's a price I have to pay, still everything happens for a reason
Is no reason not to ask myself if I'm living it right

Am I living it right, am I living it right?
Why tell me, why
Why, why Georgia, why?


http://www.elyrics.net/read/j/john-mayer-lyrics/why-georgia-lyrics.html


I knew I wasnt the only person who wondered why if they're living their life right..... WHY?????

Unrealistic Expectations!

Most little girls fall asleep with the expectation that being the best person they can be will definitely guarantee them the love of their life and a happy family life. I guess I'm having a hard time accepting all the realities that are my adult years. Funny how a positive outlook can depend on the approval of another. I know its just around that time when everything seems dark for me. But it doesn't make it seem any easier. Bleeding heart! I struggle to make the right choices these days. Knowing what's right in your mind, and denying what's in your heart is not something that comes easily. Tomorrow's a new day, hopefully full beautiful beginnings and a fresh start.