Comfort

"Lay down! And tell me what's on your mind! What exactly did he do to make you cry this time?"  I just feel like I need some comforting right now. And I guess that makes me look around frantically. Doesn't matter if the shoe doesn't fit, you're gonna wear it! Yea that type of thinking never works. My mind shifts back and forth, I move from settling to demanding. Too many times before in my life I've settled for the wrong kinds of men. And it seems like when I demand what I want and need I come up empty handed.

When I thought about it last nite, "The Guy" is a situation that should've never really happened. Yea sure I had a HUGE crush on him in high school. But all that we've been through together has always been forced. If we would've been honest with our selves and each other from the beginning I could've saved myself years of agony. I was never the type of female that he is looking for and needs in his life. And some how at some point he refused to be the man I need to be in mine.

Recently I liked someone else, and you know what it felt good to like him. But the closer I looked the more I could see that we weren't a good fit. At first it was the things that I am hard on myself for not being. But that didn't cause me to pause. It was the things that put a bad taste in my mouth. The attention was nice while it lasted, but it didn't last all that long actually.

Now there's no one there, I could always default to the one who held my heart for all those years, but its kind of like WHY???? I already know how that story's gonna end. So here I sit wanting to love, but no outlet for it. So I guess for now, I'll pretend that a beautiful baritone voice is singing this to me:

Talk to me, baby.
I'm listening.

Lay down.
And tell me what's on your mind.
What exactly did he do? To make you cry this time?
Well, I will be your comforter. I will make it right
He cast a shadow on your heart. And I will bring back your light
Come in...

I see he's hurt you again,
When you're in pain I'm in pain
That's part of bein' a friend.
But this is a special case.
I held my feelings back because of him
And now I can see more than ever
I made a big, big, big mistake.

I don't mean to disregard your feelings
But i think that he's a fool.
he don't know how sensitive you are
And baby, that just ain't cool.

I'm just glad I could be here for you
When you need a helping hand.
But deep inside my heart, from the start
I know I should have been your man.

Lay down.
And tell me what's on your mind.
What exactly did he do?Tell me what he do...
To make you cry this time? To make you cry this time?
Well, I will be your comforter. I will make it right
He cast a shadow on your heart. And I will bring back your light

I will comfort comfort comfort you.
I will I will comfort you.
I will comfort comfort comfort you.
I will I will comfort you.
I will comfort comfort comfort you.
I will I will comfort you.
I will comfort comfort comfort you.
I will I will comfort you.

Lay down. Please tell me, baby.
And tell me what's on your mind Tell me what's on your mind
What exactly did he do? To make you cry this time
Well, I'll be your comforter. I will make it alright
He cast a shadow on your heart. And I will bring back your light