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Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Really?



Sometimes it feels like my soul longs to be tortured by the uncertain. How else would you explain my recent relapse into insanity? I thought I had thrown those rose color glasses away, maybe during a sleep walking adventure I purchased another pair, put them on my face and failed to realize I was wearing them as I awoke and went about my day. No? That excuse doesn't work either? How can I rationally explain what I have been feeling the last few weeks. The details my mind has glazed over. In an attempt to try to understand my feelings more I looked at some of my old writings. Some of my old feelings. And there they were, the reasons why these glasses must be DESTROYED and never purchased again. But how do I explain this to my heart? How can I get my heart on board? Hmmmm, Well there is one thing that I know to be true. The mind is POWERFUL and I must rely on it to see me through all of this. Logic tells me move on with my life, and even if no other man rises to the challenge he doesn't not deserve to stand in that spot ever again. To support my claim I offer the following:

1. His relationship status!
2. Has anything changed?
3. What is he offering you?

He's not even single and yet he's saying what to you? How can you downgrade to a guest appearance when at least before you were the Star of the show.
All the gripes and things that made you sad about your relationship before, aren't they still there? Has he taken ownership for any of the things that he did to contribute to the demise of your relationship? Your differences have not changed, and remember that's why it could never work.
And honestly what is he offering you? Something that you wouldn't even enjoy or want from him right now. As a good friend put it, I'm acting out of loneliness. But loneliness is never justification enough to step back into the shoes you abandoned before. Reclaim your focus, and apply it towards something beneficial and worth while. This reality check has been brought to you by your local logical thinking network service.

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