N. Dalessio

Today I remembered an even older flame. What made this guy so SPECIAL??? I liked him from the moment I first laid eyes on him. That had never happened to me before and hasn't happened since. I liked him and I got the impression that he liked me. Our conversation instantly took off. Problem was there was someone in my life at the time. DARN! But we were friends... then wouldn't you know that person wasn't in my life anymore... but my friend didn't make a move. One night I left myself totally open and instead of taking advantage he was a complete gentleman. I SO NEEDED THAT more than what I wanted. But then wouldn't you know the guy I've been whining about came into my life. (SAD FACE!) At the time it seemed like a good idea because my friend wouldn't step up. Now I don't know which would've been worse... So I chose the guy who broke my heart. My friend even tried to talk me out of it. I wonder what would've happened if I would've chose him instead. Either way I was in trouble. My friend eventually stopped trying and moved on with his life. He moved out of the area, and I lost touch with him. I saw him a few years ago at the height of my depression, needless to say I don't look the same. I don't know that he recognized me. He didn't seem happy to see me. (Crying face) He brushed me off, and very nonchalantly said I'm getting married and having a baby. There's no point in thinking about him, when he clearly doesn't even remember me. I guess our two year friendship was forgettable to him. But for me, its something that will stick with me for the rest of my life. That never happened before or again. It was amazing and like something from a movie. You walk into work one day there's the oh so yummy new guy! I wasn't shy around him or anything like I normally am. There was something about him that made him different. There' s something about Mary???? No, its something about Neil.