State of Confusion

Your fingers did the talking, but on schedule you spoke to my secret. Instead of denying what was screaming inside of me I let my fingers speak on it. In electronic agreement we met. In your arms I found myself. A place I have missed for years.

Hearing you speak to me, just wish it still didn't feel like pulling nails to even hear you admit to loving me. Why cant you just declare it, and mean it with all intensity. The smell of your breath is fresh on the morning dew. There's so much I want to say to you, but the words get in the way. My thoughts were suspended in a fog was I surrendered to your request. Missing you deeply, and needing you wholly I gave in to the moment.

Morning reflection has me in a state of confusion. My mind and heart are screaming at each other. The battle has begun, who knows how this will end. My heart leaps for joy as it says Yay, my mind takes it's battle stance as it says Nay! Maybe time will decide for me, who knows. Should I trust you? My mind says NO although my heart wants to desperately. Honestly I don't want to be with anyone else. But my mind says this will not end happily. What to do? What to do?